So today, quite possibly, has been one of the most emotionally draining days in my little itty bitty author career. As you all know The Legacy has been on tour all week and has gotten so much attention from people who I wouldn’t be able to reach on my own. Shout-out to YA Bound Book Tours for making that happen for me! I appreciate that a lot.
However, as new people read The Legacy, of course, there are new reviews. And I am that crazy author that Googles their name, searches on Twitter for it, etc. just to see how many people (other than my friends and family) are talking about my book. I especially was getting hit with lots of notifications this week because in addition to the tour I am also hosting a giveaway for a $20 Amazon gift card. So, my Facebook/Twitter and even IG was blowing up!
Hey, everyone loves money, right? Especially Amazon money.
So, back to the point. Reviews. New eyes mean new opinions. And you know how people love to share their opinion.
Today in my sleuthing, I ran across a blog post that reviewed my novel. I wasn’t @’d on Twitter (which most GOOD book reviewers do) so I already knew this was going to be some bullshit. (Excuse my language. That’s the Andrea in me.) So, despite all the alarms and sirens going off in my head, I click the link anyway.
After I read that review I couldn’t breathe. My face was hot. My hands were shaking. I’ve only been that mad one other time…but that was in my previous life. MOVING ON!
I literally was hot because I was so angry. Not only was the review bad, it was downright mean. I understand if you don’t like a book because you couldn’t get into it. It’s not a subject matter that interests you, etc. I understand that because I can’t get into historical fiction like that, or anything with werewolves or vampires. (Except for the Shadow Falls novels) So we all have our preferences in what we like to read, fine. But when you KNOW you don’t like mystery/suspense novels and you choose to read one anyway…………..
Again, besides the point. I couldn’t handle how angry I was. I wanted to email the blogger and cuss her out. I wanted to tell her that she was wrong. I had a good book because 17 people on Amazon told me so! Because I stayed up all night (most nights when I wanted to jump out of a window rather than finish my book) and finished my book. I know those characters! It felt like she was badmouthing my child. I felt personally attacked. And I cried.
I cried because I was angry. I cried because I was letting ONE review get to me. I’ve gotten praise for my novel from here to Timbuktu from people I’ve never even shared the same air with, and this girl’s janky review got to me. Honestly, I’d never heard anyone say some of the things she said about my book, but again, that’s her opinion. (And you know what they say about opinions).
I have to learn that for every scathing review there will good ones. I put my book out here for the world to read. And they don’t have to love it. Some people are going to hate it! Some people are going to think it’s just okay. Some people (I hope most people) will stan over it! And I just have to be okay with that. I have to get a thicker skin when it comes to people reading and criticizing my work. I have to take ME out of it.
So, to the blogger who dogged my book, thank you for your review. I really do appreciate your feedback and your harshly unkind words.
I also hope you step on a Lego.
Necole, over and out.